When the dark cloud no longer lingers.
When it’s smoke no longer creeps over my left shoulder.
When my body no longer steps through weighted air.
When the fear of happiness leaving no longer disturbs it’s presence.
When I can see that I am good.
When I react with strength because I know I am strong.
When I move lightly.
When I can know my life is good and believe it.
When I sleep just because I’m tired.
When I wake because I’m rested.
When I no longer look at myself shamefully.
When I can feel, without a doubt that I love myself.
When I can stop hiding from the sight of my body and the mirror shows beauty and power.
When safety is within, not just found laying flat on the cold tiled floor.
When I can look my partner, my best friend in the eyes and say I love you without fear.
When the pain can move through me, not getting stuck in my hips, my back, my shoulders, my jaw, my chest.
When my hair no longer falls to the floor in piles that I sweep up.
When life no longer takes my breath away or makes my fingers tingle or my throat close, my body throb, or my stomach ache.
When I’m no longer afraid to go to the grocery store.
When I know that I am good.
When I know it was not my fault.
When I look forward and know my life is more than movement.
When pain isn’t paralysis.
When I can feel the hold of the past but it doesn’t hurt so much.
When I can trust all of myself and know that parts fit together to help me understand that fear is not who I am.
When healing is stronger than fearing.